These all relate. You may think they are unrelated. However, they are inextricably linked. The answers could save your life or your sanity or both. If one looks around, one sees the use of medical drugs for moods. One sees addictions, which are self prescribed drugs for moods. One sees a lot of pain.
The chart can show us where is the pain. This would be the house of Chiron, in part. Find Chiron’s House in your chart and you can go to the depth of your pain. This is an example of the chart being very powerful for insight. I can link some of my Chiron articles, so you can check out yours.
At any rate, once we find the House of our Chiron, we are left with the pain, still. People try to medicate pain for the simple reason that it hurts. One wants the pain to stop.What can we do?
I have tried most routes except the traditional medical. I knew this was not the path for me. None worked. I found God. Then, I had the Bible and the Holy Spirit to lead me. Things got better but I did not have the peace of mind I wanted. The old ideas I took on in the home of the Malignant Narcissist parent plagued me. I did not know what to do to break free.
It seemed that the answer was in my anger. The anger is not a cool, blue anger. It is a red hot anger that would burn like a fire. I pushed it down so much that all I had was depression and anxiety. I did not feel the anger any more. I covered this over with the shroud that I was “nice”. If it could have stayed down like a well trained dog, all would have been well and good, I suppose.
However, it wanted out like a voracious lion spying meat on the other side. There is a principle in human nature that the body and the mind try to heal. They do this by pushing out the poisons. Hence, if one wants to push them back in, one is in an eternal struggle.
How did I come to see that my rage was one of the roots of my emotional problems? It just came to me. Alice Miller talks about this and I read it in her books. However, it recently hit my heart. Ideas are of no help when they are stuck in the realm of the intellect. They have to hit the heart and the gut. Then, they can begin to heal the afflicted person.
I suspect there is more than just anger in this healing process. The rest of the answer is to face the truth of human nature, my own first,then, that of others. I seem not to be able to face it. I think when one grows up with so much denial, one is stuck in it such as a building stuck in a foundation for which it has existed for many years. I suspect that one cannot tear it down easily. It was erected to save the person’s life. That is the genesis of defense mechanisms.
Hence, I am at this fork in the road. I have come a ways, but have a ways to go. Please comment on my Comment Form, if you can relate.